Separation affects...

“The separations will either make the heart grow fonder, or not that is the subject of today’s blog”

This is an age-old question. Some one told me if I honestly believe in it, it would make me feel better, focus on the reunion rather than separation. I believe most people just wanted to say kind things to make you feel better, on an otherwise impossible situation to comfort someone. What could you say to some one who lost a love one, can possibly make them feel better. Perhaps a warm hug or firm hand sake some times do a better job than just words?

There is not a single easy way to deal with separation. I can’t even imagine families of our arm services when they have to wave good bye to their love one, not knowing if they will ever seen them again. Your heart feels like being tie to a boulder before being throw aboard, the helpless sinking feeling is so heavy, it is an out of body experience.

The evening I had to wave goodbye for the second time in 8 months, I can honestly say I am emotionally unconscious. It was a total back out. I wander the city streets afterward aimlessly for an unknown period of time. I saw people talking, but seem like they were speaking in different tongue. I did not know how I got home, but I did. Have you experience separation? Care to comments.

In the end, I am better equipped to deal with situation then most. For the last 5 days, I have been plunging myself into work, I had restarted my paintings that I had been neglected for almost 8 months. The result was interesting. I had one of the most violent canvases I ever created. The mood of the creation was wild and dark, the application of paint on canvas was restless, and the objects were heavily outlined, as if I am desperately trying to contain the existing shape and things subconsciously. May be this is a new period I am entering. Only time will tell.

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